today i went for our navy enlistment briefing at Changi Naval Base. went there together with my friends and gor gor..
me n gor gor went there with the hope that we may not be enlisted into navy on 10th April which is like next thurs...cos seriously we really we cld at least rest a little bit longer since we came back frm our mission trip..
hai...while on the journey towards naval base was a heavy and burdened heart..we do not know what to expect...when we gonna be enlisted...
gor gor let me listen to this song..call "just a ride."
yeah somehow the lyrics of this song spoke to both of us.
Life is like just a ride.You cant get off the ride just like this as and when u like it, cos u gt to pay the price. There is no need to fear or scare cos it is a ride. Go thru it. Slowly we will be able to get over thru God!!
well...i told gor gor let us just enjoy this ride or this journey in navy though our hearts are burdenful..
hai...when we reached the navy office.. the truth strucked right in front of our faces..
WE ARE GOING TO BE ENLISTED ON THE 1OTH APRIL!!!
hai.. in our hearts we were still thinking we may be enlisted on the month of june instead..
but then i tried to look at tis whole entire situation frm God's perspective. Trying hard to carry a positive attitude...
then i remember that i shld nt hide my feelings..i shld just tell God im nt ready and prepared for the navy life...
me n gor gor both felt uncomfortable to step out of our comfort zone..
to us it seems tat we have been kept in a very safe christian environment for a very long time.. now we are been forced to go into a different world where we have to start frm scratch..
God reminded me on the way towards the place where we try our uniforms.
that i am not here by accident. i have a destiny to fulfill in this place. God has sth in placed for me. He wants to do a deeper work in me, He wants to use me to magnify Him. I am here to shine the light to my mates, especially to my classmates who are also in this navy thingy.
i am not living for my own. i m living this life for Him. i was reminded tat Paul considered everything in his life as rubbish as compared to the surpassing knowledge of knowing Jesus.
Paul poured out his life as an offering unto the Lord. and i want to do so too. i was also reminded that i need to focus on God. i need to see Christ as my motivation and my source of strength to stay inside this navy camp.(phil 4:13)
" i can do all things through the one who give me strength"
i also learnt tat i need to die to myself. die to my desires! just like wat it is mentioned in John 12:24-26.
God strengthen this heart of mine. As i go forth to this new mission field. Help me to see this as mission field n a place to prepare for ur work.Amen