Hospitalized yesterday!!
ah dui...haven enlisted into navy ..i was emlisted to hospital ytd midnight...
haha...
ya after eating so much of thai laksa and so much desserts..i gt so bloated when i reached home ytd...
so pain that i couldnt slp...that i woke up to vomit a few times...it was terrible men...
couldnt slp at all...oso having the fear of worrying my mum...i chose not to let her noe...
but in the end i reali cant tahan anymore...i seriously needed to go to hospital...
it is my first time being hospitalised...
first time had dripping....so painful la...had three jabs ytd....one of the jabs was the most painful jabs i ever taken...it just feel like someone hit u right at ur face la...
hais....
thanks God tat i am discharged le...but of cos when i was told that i can go hm le...i dun reali wan to go hm cos gt ppl sayang ma..and take care...haha...
anyway i oso think tt it was a spiritual warfare...cos when i was on the way hm...i was talkng to both jacobs... i was sharing my heart and my desire of going to navy to share the gospel to my mates...
i told em that other then wanting to share my faith to ppl...i told em tt i have no other motivation to go into the navy le...
i think tt like what bee said in her blog...the evil is always watching at us...waitin to devour us...
My Beloved Team!!
dear team mates!!!
i reali wanna say a big thank you for those cards tt u wrote to me today...
it reali touched my heart n i reali felt loved...
cos these cards r impt to me..they lightened my heart n oso at least it boost me b4 i go into the navy..and oso that i was remembered by u guys..
and i oso want to thanks yining n joelle for planning this...
and yining as i said before i reali consider u as a blessing to me men...i have always seen tat u choose to pour out ur love to others despite the fact tt they may nt reciprocate..thx for ur love that u shown to me n others...and i reali considered u as a little sister to me ...yeah!!
i almost cried when i read those cards on the train just now...but couldnt find a place to do it..haha.. so kept it in my heart..
thx once again...like wat i typed in the msg tt i sent to u guys...i will persevere during the bad days n hard times.. cos i m goin to represent Christ and all of ur prayers...
one thing tt i wld ask frm u is to keep me in prayers..i seriously need em...my heart yearn to serve Him by spreading the love of God to ppl in my platoon...i believe tt there is sth i need to start during my years in the Navy...a destiny for me to fulfill..
do remember to pray for me during ur prayer time within the team..
thx guys...
An unprepared Heart.
today i went for our navy enlistment briefing at Changi Naval Base.
went there together with my friends and gor gor..
me n gor gor went there with the hope that we may not be enlisted into navy on 10th April which is like next thurs...cos seriously we really we cld at least rest a little bit longer since we came back frm our mission trip..
hai...while on the journey towards naval base was a heavy and burdened heart..we do not know what to expect...when we gonna be enlisted...
gor gor let me listen to this song..call "just a ride."
yeah somehow the lyrics of this song spoke to both of us.
Life is like just a ride.You cant get off the ride just like this as and when u like it, cos u gt to pay the price. There is no need to fear or scare cos it is a ride. Go thru it. Slowly we will be able to get over thru God!!
well...i told gor gor let us just enjoy this ride or this journey in navy though our hearts are burdenful..
hai...when we reached the navy office.. the truth strucked right in front of our faces..
WE ARE GOING TO BE ENLISTED ON THE 1OTH APRIL!!!
hai.. in our hearts we were still thinking we may be enlisted on the month of june instead..
but then i tried to look at tis whole entire situation frm God's perspective. Trying hard to carry a positive attitude...
then i remember that i shld nt hide my feelings..i shld just tell God im nt ready and prepared for the navy life...
me n gor gor both felt uncomfortable to step out of our comfort zone..
to us it seems tat we have been kept in a very safe christian environment for a very long time.. now we are been forced to go into a different world where we have to start frm scratch..
God reminded me on the way towards the place where we try our uniforms.
that i am not here by accident. i have a destiny to fulfill in this place. God has sth in placed for me. He wants to do a deeper work in me, He wants to use me to magnify Him. I am here to shine the light to my mates, especially to my classmates who are also in this navy thingy.
i am not living for my own. i m living this life for Him. i was reminded tat Paul considered everything in his life as rubbish as compared to the surpassing knowledge of knowing Jesus.
Paul poured out his life as an offering unto the Lord. and i want to do so too. i was also reminded that i need to focus on God. i need to see Christ as my motivation and my source of strength to stay inside this navy camp.(phil 4:13)
" i can do all things through the one who give me strength"
i also learnt tat i need to die to myself. die to my desires! just like wat it is mentioned in John 12:24-26.
God strengthen this heart of mine. As i go forth to this new mission field. Help me to see this as mission field n a place to prepare for ur work.Amen