ah dui...haven enlisted into navy ..i was emlisted to hospital ytd midnight... haha... ya after eating so much of thai laksa and so much desserts..i gt so bloated when i reached home ytd... so pain that i couldnt slp...that i woke up to vomit a few times...it was terrible men...
couldnt slp at all...oso having the fear of worrying my mum...i chose not to let her noe...
but in the end i reali cant tahan anymore...i seriously needed to go to hospital...
it is my first time being hospitalised... first time had dripping....so painful la...had three jabs ytd....one of the jabs was the most painful jabs i ever taken...it just feel like someone hit u right at ur face la...
thanks God tat i am discharged le...but of cos when i was told that i can go hm le...i dun reali wan to go hm cos gt ppl sayang ma..and take care...haha...
anyway i oso think tt it was a spiritual warfare...cos when i was on the way hm...i was talkng to both jacobs... i was sharing my heart and my desire of going to navy to share the gospel to my mates...
i told em that other then wanting to share my faith to ppl...i told em tt i have no other motivation to go into the navy le...
i think tt like what bee said in her blog...the evil is always watching at us...waitin to devour us...
My Beloved Team!!
dear team mates!!! i reali wanna say a big thank you for those cards tt u wrote to me today... it reali touched my heart n i reali felt loved... cos these cards r impt to me..they lightened my heart n oso at least it boost me b4 i go into the navy..and oso that i was remembered by u guys..
and i oso want to thanks yining n joelle for planning this... and yining as i said before i reali consider u as a blessing to me men...i have always seen tat u choose to pour out ur love to others despite the fact tt they may nt reciprocate..thx for ur love that u shown to me n others...and i reali considered u as a little sister to me ...yeah!!
i almost cried when i read those cards on the train just now...but couldnt find a place to do it..haha.. so kept it in my heart..
thx once again...like wat i typed in the msg tt i sent to u guys...i will persevere during the bad days n hard times.. cos i m goin to represent Christ and all of ur prayers...
one thing tt i wld ask frm u is to keep me in prayers..i seriously need em...my heart yearn to serve Him by spreading the love of God to ppl in my platoon...i believe tt there is sth i need to start during my years in the Navy...a destiny for me to fulfill..
do remember to pray for me during ur prayer time within the team.. thx guys...
An unprepared Heart.
today i went for our navy enlistment briefing at Changi Naval Base. went there together with my friends and gor gor..
me n gor gor went there with the hope that we may not be enlisted into navy on 10th April which is like next thurs...cos seriously we really we cld at least rest a little bit longer since we came back frm our mission trip..
hai...while on the journey towards naval base was a heavy and burdened heart..we do not know what to expect...when we gonna be enlisted...
gor gor let me listen to this song..call "just a ride."
yeah somehow the lyrics of this song spoke to both of us.
Life is like just a ride.You cant get off the ride just like this as and when u like it, cos u gt to pay the price. There is no need to fear or scare cos it is a ride. Go thru it. Slowly we will be able to get over thru God!!
well...i told gor gor let us just enjoy this ride or this journey in navy though our hearts are burdenful..
hai...when we reached the navy office.. the truth strucked right in front of our faces..
WE ARE GOING TO BE ENLISTED ON THE 1OTH APRIL!!!
hai.. in our hearts we were still thinking we may be enlisted on the month of june instead..
but then i tried to look at tis whole entire situation frm God's perspective. Trying hard to carry a positive attitude...
then i remember that i shld nt hide my feelings..i shld just tell God im nt ready and prepared for the navy life...
me n gor gor both felt uncomfortable to step out of our comfort zone..
to us it seems tat we have been kept in a very safe christian environment for a very long time.. now we are been forced to go into a different world where we have to start frm scratch..
God reminded me on the way towards the place where we try our uniforms.
that i am not here by accident. i have a destiny to fulfill in this place. God has sth in placed for me. He wants to do a deeper work in me, He wants to use me to magnify Him. I am here to shine the light to my mates, especially to my classmates who are also in this navy thingy.
i am not living for my own. i m living this life for Him. i was reminded tat Paul considered everything in his life as rubbish as compared to the surpassing knowledge of knowing Jesus.
Paul poured out his life as an offering unto the Lord. and i want to do so too. i was also reminded that i need to focus on God. i need to see Christ as my motivation and my source of strength to stay inside this navy camp.(phil 4:13)
" i can do all things through the one who give me strength"
i also learnt tat i need to die to myself. die to my desires! just like wat it is mentioned in John 12:24-26.
God strengthen this heart of mine. As i go forth to this new mission field. Help me to see this as mission field n a place to prepare for ur work.Amen
the Precious Memories of our last day!!
Rejoice of the many lessons tat i learnt frm this trip...it was a very ministering trip for me in terms of the many issues tat i were struggling in life back then... like wat Alvin said in his blog, i think i receive more that i had given unto the ppl..
Below are some of the lessons that i learnt in summary: 1. i learnt that God is God. God is the one who is in control. He choose to unveil His glories in who He finds delight in.No one can ever rob away His glory.
2. i am a unworthy. Nothing i can do or i have done, cld ever make Him love me lesser or more. He is the one that place worth n value in my life.
3. My worth n value is nt based on ppl or hw capable of who i am. I realized that my life has been revolving around too much of ppl's opinions in my life. i have been living to perform as if there was a score card in my life. Thinking tt my worth n value is dependent on how good or capable i am.
4. Worship is not just singing songs. But it is a constant journey n process of honoring God whenever n wherever i am. Honoring Him with my best- my thoughts, conduct, attitude. It shld be blameless before the lord.
5. the Love and the presence of God transcends all things even languages. We saw how our worship actually brought n draw our back sliden christian host back to Christ. She was so touched by our worship. She said she saw God in us though she may not understand our langauge. She can feel the presence of God at then.
6. though i may not have much to give unto the poor. But i can simply bring forth the love of God to them thru my actions. i learnt tt actions speak louder than words.
7. HE is the riches of the poor. He is the one tt can bring true satisfaction to ppl.
yeah these are the lessons that i learnt frm this trip. It is really amazing hw God has been unveiling His glories in us.
I am BACK!!!
Yeah...im back frm my mission trip in Thailand...
Coming back to Singapore was a mixed feelings of both sadness and rejoice!!
Sad because i have seen so much of needs out there in Thailand. SO many ppl living in poverty- both spiritually and physically, crying out for the presence of God to come into their land. I saw people being abandoned by their own children, infected by AIDS & despised by ppl ( all living in real poverty!!!)
When all these needs were placed in front of me, it just overwhelmed me. It pains my heart. My heart was filled with fears for these ppl. i asked myself what happen if they die one day, will there be anyone there to help them in arranging their funeral.
Being overwhelmed by these needs, i cried out to God. Becos i realised there is only so little i cld do for these ppl. Then God spoke to me. "My son, why do u have to cry? though these ppl do not have anything, but they have me. They need me. I am the riches of these ppl. Let the poor say they are rich.. and all u need to do is to be with them. Show them the love of God."
i was so touched by this voice. It was so real and lovely to me. It just encouraged me to press on n keep on praying for these ppl n show them the love of God thru me.
i was more than happy cos for the days in my mission trip, God has been unveiling His glory and love thru me. Lives were touched by Him thru me. i was awed cos God choose to use an unworthy servant like me to unveil His glory thru me.
these were the 3 women that i particularly felt burdened during the trip.
The old lady in the above pict is abandoned by her own daughter. Living alone in a small hut left by her daughter. Her daughter told her unless she take cares of the chickens, she is not allowed to stay in that small hut. Before we left Thailand, she falled sicked and no one was there to take care of her.
There were two another ladies that i am talking abt. They are Mother n Daughter. The mum is unable to see and walk properly. And her daughter is a mute. Their family members alrdy passed on. Both live in a very small hut too. The old lady has to depend on the daughter for living. Due to their disabilites, they were always hit n bullied by kids.
i will always keep them in prayers.
I rejoice becos of the precious lessons that i learnt frm this trip. well, if u want to noe do read the next entry tt i will blogging tml ya..
the apple of His eyes
The Apple of His Eye
A well known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?"
Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this." He proceeded to crumple the dollar bill up. He then asked, "Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air."
Well," he continued, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now all crumpled and dirty. "Now who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.
"My friends, you have all learned a very valuable lesson.
No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20. Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless.
But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value in God's eyes. To Him, dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to Him. Psalm 17:8 states that God will keep us, "as the apple of His eye."
what a precious lesson that i learnt...and it is reali an answered prayer. Cos i asked God what is reali my worth in Him..yup i hope tt it will encourage our hearts too when we are down...