Is this cause worth my everything?
Sometimes looking other peoples' lives, i feel that deep sense of emptiness in their lives because i realsied that alot of them were just doing things to fill up the emptiness in their lives- trying so hard to find a purpose out of their life. Some of them just want to do nothing, when you ask are they happy with their life, they will just say that "as long as i do the things that i like to do, i am happy!!!" Hearing all these passive responses from my friends or the students that i met for street witnessing, just hurt me so much to see lives just being stucked in a cycle of routine activities- eat,sleep,play,internet,play games,clubbing,friends,BGR etc..Not knowing the real cost of lives. And all i could do everytime when i see such ppl passing by my sight in the train or bus, is to pray and utter a short prayer of blessing for them that they may realise the love of Christ is able to fill all things in life. After sometime, i asked myself or tried to recall back how is it like or feel to be like a Non christian? initially, i reali couldnt remember... but after awhile as i spent time alone at home surfing internet sometime ago...the entire day..my labtop was on ever since i woke up...and i jus started to surf internet and chat...trying to find something to do in it...but there is reali nothing except playing games,chat,youtube, check emails( the whole entire cycle keep on revolving the whoel day)...and soon realise one day had jus passed... wow...time really flies men... and it is also through this day, God helped me to remember the emptiness and the purposeless life of Non christians.. He helped me to also realise sometimes Christians can also easily falled into this trap, where procastination and laziness can just come out..
What about myself?what about christians?
Sometimes, even being a christian for so long, i also question myself is this cause worth my time,my passion,my family and my everything? this question came back to me when a freshmen came to ask me what do we do in crusade? i told him that we come together to study the word of God, having fellowship with one another and also do plan events too.. then he told me that is all...isn't that a waste of time? this qusetion came frm his mouth jus hurt me so much... i replied to him boldly that "it is not a waste of time" ( deep down in my heart i told myself that it is so true that when ppl do not recognise Christ as the saviour of their lives)
at that point of time, Satan also tried to deceive by confusing me and wanting me to doubt abt the things that im doing...
he made me question whether all these things that i m doing, is it worth it or is it jus a waste of time?
all i could say is that everything wil be MEANINGLESS....if God is the centre of everything of my life..seriouslly even serving can be empty too- when He is not placed as the most important one or the one whom we seek to please or glorify..
But i also started to wonder why Satan wants or had the chance of planting that doubt in my heart..and i came to this point when i thought of the christians around me..
Manyt times when i look at the christians or even the crusade juniors of mine, i'm wondering are they just following the motion of life or had losen sight of the eternal purpose of life- one that God had placed in us. It really disappoint me like sometimes seeing christians coming to church or crusade just for the sake of ppl, finding it as a refuge to hide themselves from the reality of not able to connect with their friends in class, find a place to slack, encouragements,satisfactions, look for friends and some unknown reason that i do not know too. And in fact if we were to take alook at the current condition of our crusade, it somehow had became into a refuge or "gambling den that was set inside the temple" mention in the New Testament by Jesus. People just started to come into crusade room o play game or slack around.It just disturbs me very much when i see such scenes in the place of God. This place had lost its purpose or maybe some of us had lost the distinctive of being the salt and light of the world in the campus. i wonder about that??
i came to guess that the reasons why satan can had that chance to deceive me, is that maybe i thought that my service to God should be equilvalent to the change in crusade- we should be seeing a movement by now... or is that had i finish reading the whole entire bible after this 3 years?after all these processing,only helped me to remember that a movement is a move of God not by men or their works. It is never about how much i had served him, only Him can bring a growth in ppl's lives not me!! likewise to the lives of the crusaders, it is not me who control their growth...and it is never about how knowledgable..it is about Him!! Hence i only can conclude that my service to HIm is worth it as i chose to follow the call of being a disciple maker in this campus, i had chose to invest in the young lives whom may know or do not know Christ. I only can say i am glad that i can be part of the process of spiritual multiplication though many times i looked back at how i could have spent my last 3 years in continueing doing adventures, outdoors sports and rock climbing- the things that i like to do. But i always remember these verses- "In the same way, any of you who does not give up everything he has cannot be my disciple."(Luke 14:33) and " one who look back and put his hand on the plow is not fit in the kingdom of God"
it had always encourage me not to look back but to place to my eyes on the things that God had placed in my life, focusing on fulfilling on what He wants me to do. I pray that God will soon bring a breakthrough and revival in my life and also the lives of the young ones in the ministry that he may bring a spiritual hunger in them. Lord pls raise up ur faithful labourers from ur children. Prepare the way for us o lord!!!
Your Grace is Enough
Great is Your faithfulness oh God
You wrestle with the sinner's heart
You lead us by still waters and to mercy
And nothing can keep us apart
So remember Your people
Remember Your children
Remember Your promise
Oh God
Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough for me
Great is Your love and justice God
You use the weak to lead the strong
You lead us in the song of Your salvation
And all Your people sing along
So remember Your people
Remember Your children
Remember Your promise
Oh God
Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough for me
So remember Your people
Remember Your children
Remember Your promise
Oh God
Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough for me
Your grace is enough
Heaven reaching down to us
Your grace is enough for me
God i see your grace is enough
I'm covered in your love
Your grace is enough for me
For me
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His grace is Enough
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
Today went swimming together with my gor gor. While swimming, somehow i will always remember the lesson that i learnt from God when i was swimming a few years back. And this lesson is always so realistic to my life and our lives- that our lives is just like a race marked down with many different obstacles,trials and persecutions for us to go through, and it requires perseverance and determination to complete the race. The more i swim, i found myself gets tired and wanting to give up. But what kepts me through, was the desire of finishing the race no matter what- even i may have to take a longer time to finish it which is similar to our lives. Yeah even i may take a longer path or a more difficult to finish the race, i have to complete it by enduring all the hardships and the trainings that were there meant to train and mould me to become the person that He desires.
Talking about hardships, i believe that God had long started placing me in those tough times in my life- losing my father,poverty,hunger,humiliation,betrayal, disappointments,shame,humility and etc. I believe the work that Christ has started in me, he will complete it till the day that He comes. I hope the ones that are suffering or thinks that they are suffering in their lives, that they will not lose hope but continue to make Christ as the hope of our lives. We are all warned that, the power of this world lies in the hands of the devil- one who is waiting like a lion waiting to proar on its prey. We are his preys, and for sure we will be constantly attacked by him. He uses the weakest and the injured areas of our lives, to plant lies in our mind. He allows temptations to come in for us to be attracted to it as our flesh is weak and is always in conflict with the Holy Spirit's desire. And i find it so true in my life, that i found myself easily to believe his lies and always ended up in condemnation,hurts and disappointment especially when i come face to face to relationship and frienfdship issues.Somehow we will always end up in a cycle of the consequences of sins, finding ourselves not been able to come back to reality or face God or surrender to Him. i also realised that when we choose not to put Christ as the Lordship of our lives, we will be easily deceived by the lies that Satan put in us and fall into his traps.
I realised that once this race has started there is no turning back, all i have to do is to trust in Christ that He will keep me through and preserve me till the end, through HIs unfailing love and amazing grace. Grace is something that i found it irresistable, and His grace is always ever sufficient to keep me through whenever i realised i had sinned against HIm in some ways. He will always still be there listening to my cries and bring healing to my inner being so that i can stand up again. Even though sometimes we may not want to accept His grace because we feel unworthy and filthy, His grace is always there made available for all of us- You and me. Just wana encourage you who are reading this post now,to continue to be steadfast in your faith. Whereas for ones that have not receive Jesus Christ as their Lord and Saviour, i hope that through this post will help you the reality and the vulnerability of life, and you may consider to invite Christ into your life because you will soon realise that grace is all you need in this world to get out of our miry clay. And definitely His grace is sufficient for everyone of us.
good night and God bless.
more than welcome if you have any question to ask me about my faith or you are interested to know more about Christ.
can just drop an email to me.
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You are the Music in Me
Na na na na
Na na na na yeah
You are the music in me
You know the words "Once Upon A Time"
Make you listen? There's a reason.
When you dream there's a chance you'll find
A little laughter or a happy ever after
Your harmony to the melody
It's echoing inside my head
A single voice (Single voice)
Above the noise
And like a common thread
Hmm, you're pulling me
When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong
Oh, you are the music in me
Yeah it's living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
Because you are the music in me
Na na na na (Ohh)
Na na na na na
Yeah yeah yeah (Na na na na)
You are the music in me
It's like I knew you before we met (Before we met)
Can't explain it (Ohh ohh)
There's no name for it (No name for it)
I'm saying words I never said
And it was easy (So easy)
Because you see the real me (I see)
As I am
You understand
And that's more than I've ever known
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To hear your voice (Hear your voice)
Above the noise (Ohh ohh)
And no, I'm not alone
Oh you're singing to me (Ohh yeah)
When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong (Yeah ohh)
You are the music in me
It's living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
You are the music in me
Together we're gonna sing (Yeah)
We got the power to sing what we feel (What we feel)
Connected and real
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Can't keep it all inside (Ohh)
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Yeah yeah yeah (Na na na na)
You are the music in me (In me)
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na
You are the music in me
When I hear my favorite song (Favorite song)
I know that we belong (We belong)
You are the music in me
Yeah it's living in all of us
It's brought us here because (Here because)
You are the music in me
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na
You are the music in me (Yeah)
All Out of Love
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Open Arms
Lying beside you here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper
You're so sincere
How could our love be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side
So now I come to you with open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me
Open arms
Living without you
Living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you
Wanting you near
How much I wanted you home
But now that you've come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay
So now I come to you with open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me
Open arms
My Life Is A Vapour
You do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapour that appears for a little while and then vanishes away.
James 4:14
The result of whether we feel better or worse, depends on the choice that we make now. I learnt of one truth about our lives is that "Life is a product of choice." Yeah it is so true, we are all living in a world where we bombarded with relentless appeals to go in various directions. Television advertising alone places a hundred of options before us, in addition to appeals made by political parties, cults, false religions, and dozens of other groups. Numerous organisations,including Christian organisation,seeks to motivate us to support a cause. Add to that the dozens of decisions we must make concerning our job,our family,our money,our society, and we become depserate for someone to show us the right way. And sometimes i find myself pulled in many directions but i am reminded that God teaches the humble his way.
And the choice we make, depends upon how we view life and God. Indeed life is like a vapour, that we have no firm substance on this earth, I am just as fragile as a mist that have no durability on this earth- which i appear only for a short while. Reading this verse, allow me to remember that my time on this earth is short and i will just disappear. Life will be gone, and the world will still run without me. Realising that life is like a vapour, helps me to understand the vulnerability of life and everything- even my plans for my future and my goals. i am reminded that it is good to have goals, but goals will fail us when we leave God out of them because the future is in his hands. There is no point making goals and plans when God is not in it- "Everything is meaningless" Life without God has no purpose, life without purpose is meaningless. Cant imagine how it be like if God steps in and rearrange my plans. One thing i learnt is that plan ahead, but hold the plans loosely. Put God's desire at the centre of my plannings; he will never disappoint me.
Life is short no matter how many years we live, hence we should not be deceived into thinking that we have lots of remaning time to live for Christ, to enjoy our loved ones or to do what we should do. Live for God today! Then, no matter when ends our lives, we would have fulfilled God's plan for us.
Omnipotent,all-governing Father, not a bird falls to the ground apart from you and not a strand of hair of our heads turns gray apart from You. That i truly acknowledge that all life is held firmly in your hands, nothing can seperate us from Your love. Teach me to understand these truths about life and You.Forgive me that many times i failed to place Your desires above me. Lord, remove the pride and self-sufficiency of our lives. Teach me to obey you and rely on you each day! in Jesus' name, Amen!
