the life that i want
God is good to me every time.. that He never fails to answer my prayer...and not just onli answer them but oso answer it in a way that is of abundance..He is the God of How much more...
and this is my prayer to Him again.
that i would choose to be living a life that He wants me to live- a victorious and free one.
i reali desire a life that is solely living for Him, a heart that is for Him, a pair of eyes that is always fixing on Him.
i realised that i need to allow God to change me from the inside out, right from the core of my heart. i need Him to fill my heart with His desires.
i am not satisfied with how i m living this life. i want to live for Him, i desire for a change, a breakthru. i dun wan to live for ppl's expectations, i dun wan to be changed by circumstances.
i dun wan other sources to change me- not worship songs, service, christian books...
i want God!!!
Lord come and reign in me. Lord i want to choose to live this life for u.Guard my heart for u.For i dun wan a temporal change. Strengthen my inner being. May my love for you increase everyday.. tat everything i do will be an outflow of my love for u.
Lord may i be a witness of the good works that u have started in me..so that ppl may c ur works and praise u in heaven..
Lord i seal this prayer n desire in the most precious name!amen.
Let it be done.
all for love
All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love heavens cried
For love was crucified
Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me
Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You
Let me sing all for love
I will join the angel song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all
All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You
* i am really touched by His love tonight. Despite that i struggle n wrestle with God tonight, i was ministered by the fact He really loves till the extent it was all becos of love for me He was crucified.
That i can trust Him, even when im down. Dear lord, i love u.
love...
1 Timothy 5:8
If anyone does not provide for his own, and especially for those of his household, he has denied the faith, and is worse than an unbeliever
after looking at this verse i realise that im not very gd at loving...esp my family members...cos i nvr see myself to be that mushy person to say "i love u " to my mum or sisters...
after reading this article abt loving ur family members...
i realised that im like a pastor who is so busy ministering to other ppl's needs except my family...i m like a counsellor who councils but seldom councils my family...i always have time for other ppl but nvr my family...
in 1 John 3:16-18: "We know love by this, that He laid down His life for us; and we ought to lay down our lives for the brethren. . . . Let us not love with word or with tongue, but in deed and truth."
it is so hard to love...love requires giving and it is not just merely saying i love u to my frens or family....but giving myself for my love ones too...
i felt that i need to change in this aspects cos i know tat God is telling me this...
this kinda of family love reali requires alot out of me...
greatest thanksgiving...
i was so thankful that i cld be reconciled with my sister thru a phone that i bought a few days back.haha...it is such a long story men..but anyway im sure that the ppl who are close to me knows i was disowned by y sister since i came back frm Doulos my attachment due to some misunderstanding...
and after since that day i was have been praying that God wld do sth to this relatioship...i pray for His grace to be in our relationship...i dun wan to always remains as enermies...
not a single day i was nt thinking of my sister...i have been dreaming of her ever since we were seperated..
but then i saw how God used my mum to call my sister a few days back to ask her to help us to change my phone..
cos all along i have been eyeing on the Sony Ericsson K850i.but i cant change it cos i m not the one who signed for my current hp line..it was my sister who signed that..haiz...
i was thankful that she picked up my mum's call on last thursday...and they beginned to talk since then...so blessed was that that thursday was my sis' bdae..and we also arranged to meet up last fri to go change my phone..
in certain i was happy that i cld be reconciled with my sister but somehow i was also afraid of what to expect when we meet cos i feel the awkwardness ever since we have nt talked for so long...
shu shyan told me not to expect anything but to go with a heart to see what God wld do.i also thank God that my gor gor prayed for me...
that fri went gd...we talked,we shared and ate ice cream...hey yeah and God just led that day through...
writing this entry, i was hesitatin to write too cos it is abt my family matter...but i think i shld nt and i cant behold what God had done and HIs goodness in my life.. thru all these i saw that God works in His own special timing..
love u lord.
Apologize
I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new - yeah yeah
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...
stained glass masquerade
"Stained Glass Masquerade"
Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small
Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong
So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them
Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade
Is there anyone who's been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who's traded
In the altar for a stage
The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart
But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be
Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay
*these are just my thoughts when i listen to this song.sometimes i just wonder why there just so many ppl who can be behaving like hyprocrites- they are just like plastic ppl.
one who can never understand how those ppl who are hurt in their hearts.these ppl wil
just put a fake smile and fake love around u saying i love u.sometimes it is so true we are just living behind these stained glass- everyone pretending everything is ok but it is not.We are convinced that we are lacking of love as a church but then how many times do we live that out.
does anybody hears her?me?
She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon’s ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She’s another two years older
And she’s three more steps behind
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she’s going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that’s tucked away in your and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away
If judgment looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can’t see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her
If judgment looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can’t see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her
He is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
*my thoughts- i am just like the one in this song. One who is yearning of a shelter
and affection where i can never finds at home. but is there anyone who knows
my deepest desire and yearning...i need peace and love and acceptance.
does anybody hears or see me? who and what do they see in me?
i only know that onli God can gives me this- the love that i need and peace.
someday we'll know
[Mandy] Ninety miles outside Chicago
Can’t stop driving I don’t know why
My question....Need an answer
Two years later your still on my mine
[Jonathan] Whatever happened to Amelia Airheart?
Who hold the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
[Both] Did the captain of Titanic cry?
Oh, Someday we’ll know
[Mandy] If love can move mountains
[Both] Someday we’ll know
[Jonathan] Why the sky is blue
[Both] Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you...
[Mandy] Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
[Jonathan] What the wind says when she cries?
[Mandy] I’m speeding by the place that I met you
[Both] For the ninety-seventh time... tonight
Someday we’ll know
[Mandy] If love can move mountains
[Both] Someday we’ll know
[Jonathan] Why the sky is blue
[Both] Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you...
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Someday we’ll know
[Jonathan] Why Sampson loved Dalilah?
[Both] One day I'll go
[Mandy] Dancing on the moon
[Both] Someday you’ll know
That I was the one for you...
[Both] Open up the world
[Mandy] I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
[Jonathan] Watched the stars crash in the sea
[Mandy] If I can ask God just one question
[Both] Why aren’t you here with me tonight?
Oh, Someday we’ll know
[Jonathan] If love can move a mountain
[Both] Someday we’ll know
[Mandy] Why the sky is blue
[Both] Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you...
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Someday we’ll know
[Jonathan] Why Sampson loved Dalilah
[Both] One day I'll go
[Mandy] Dancing on the moon
[Both] Someday you’ll know
That I was the one for you...
only hope
There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope
Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope
I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope
Singapore Standard Chartered Marathon
yeah...praie the lord!!!yeah cant believe that we went to run for this marathon which requires me to wake up so early and so much of perseverance..
but it was such a gd training and experience for me...it is my third time to be in such race...first was a biathelon( swimming and running),2nd time was Bedok reservoir run and now this StandarD Chartered Marathon..
after running for this 10km race..me n wenbing feel there is no kick in this 10k we felt very short like that...haha...then we are trusting God to run for 21k next yr..then follow by a 42k at 2009...
sounds big ba...but i think these are gd goals...
after running both of us felt superb tired la...that bing walked down the stairs,it seems forever...cos there was a lot of strain of our kneecaps..haiz...
it was a fellowship together too for me...we went to eat tog with the Staff...many crusade staffs went for this race too..
we went breakfast than go out shop adidas shop since we have 20% discount after the race...hehe...but onli bought a singlet red one somemore...
then we went mac cafe to chit chat among me,bing and pris...yeah it was a gd time for the 3 of us to catch up and share anything under the sun haha...
yup yup...that is all...u can chat with me more if u wan to hear more stories frm yeah...
gd nite goona rush report le...
